Prioritising me

Does that make me bad? When I just woke up to reality and realized I should stop forcing my heart to feel the things that have already gone a long time ago? Does that make me bad when I finally decided to listen to myself and live life in my own terms?
Am I a bad person just because I finally decided to let go of everything we started, and that I only stayed because of guilt and not love? Am I a bad person for finally taking the courage of stepping out of your world and take the chance to chase my dreams? Am I a bad person just because I got the truth that loving you made me miserable and incapable?
Am I the worst person just because I left even if you knew how I tried so goddamned hard to understand every single situation we were up to? Am I still a bad person just because I have to leave now —it was me who wanted to put myself first after you left me so empty? Am I a bad person just because I wanted to give myself the opportunity of new beginnings?
Am I a bad person just because i’m able to be happy now,
It was you who hurt me first? forgot?

• Nesta, Didn’t Mean To Hurt You